Why won’t this feeling settle,

Always feeling adrift?

It’s time for nurses to meddle,

I hope it goes swift.

Turn the neck right and left

Flip over and sit up quick

I hope the therapist is deft

And I hope I don’t get sick.

I have no more time for being dizzy,

I have lots to do and need to get busy!

Before the cold settles in my bones

Let me see the light of day

The smile that rests upon your lips

And clear this haze away.

Before the cold settles in my bones

Let me feel the warmth of the sun

The touch of your skin on mine

The thrill of electricity through my veins.

Before the cold settles in my bones

Let me smell that sweet obsession

Floating on the breeze

And fill my lungs with fresh air.

Before the cold settles in my bones

Let me taste the salt upon your skin

The sweetness of your tongue

Remind me of when we were young.

Before the cold settles in my bones

Let me hear the raspiness of your voice

Echoing my name once more

As we find our final joys.

Before the cold settles in my bones.

Do not let them pull you into their cyclone

Their chaos does not belong in your life.

Hold your head up high and walk alone,

Still your tongue and avoid their strife.

Observe how they talk for all others

Be calm, knowing they know nothing at all.

Keep your knowledge under covers,

Then watch how quickly they fall.

Sometimes it is better to be silent and be

Than to get pulled in to their animosity.

Take me to the world’s end

Where the waters cascade off mountains

And the rains make everything lush and green.

Kiss my lips in pools of cooling waters

After hiking through the tropical forest.

Tuck a plumeria behind my ear

As we stand on the shore hand in hand.

Sweep my curled hair from my face

So I can see your loving eyes.

Grasp my hand and let’s run along the shore

Chasing the dolphins swimming in the ocean.

Let’s get lost in each other at the world’s end.

My heart races, my brain pounds.

Nothing can start to calm me down.

Hours upon hours I ruminate,

Fleeting and separate thoughts flood my mind.

Why is it during these stressful times,

Sleep eludes me and the world keeps spinning?

It just keeps going as I walk the midnight floor.

I force myself back to bed, but it keeps on,

Until finally, a happy memory floods into me.

Why does my mind go back to that one moment?

Is it truly the most blissful memory I have?

While my heart is racing still, my mind slows,

Savoring each moment my mind plays.

Then finally, I calm down, feeling warm

From my extremities to my core.

One question remains, do you remember too?

Then I finally find peace and fall asleep.

My heart is broken, soon you will see.

I visited the store, a clearance sign, oh me!

Say it isn’t so, goodness it can’t be.

They will no longer carry my favorite tea.

Without Earl Grey Creme, without my dreamy,

How will I make my London Fog thick and creamy?

Starbucks decision for Teavana is just unseemly.

This sadness makes my glasses all steamy.

Now the search is on for me,

All for love of a great cuppa tea.

I hoped I would have the chance

To one day pass on my grandmother’s quilt.

The one she made when I was a child,

From scraps of my own mother’s clothes.

Alas, no children of my own,

And too many nieces to pick.

I’d rather it go to one of yours,

But for now, that wouldn’t be right.

So I hold it in a closet,

and look at it now and then,

The purple trim and quilted pieces,

I just hope one day it can be passed on

To someone who cares as much as I do.