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Snowy Owl Lane – A Late Spring Day

Part Six

The snow melted and the spring sun brought the field aside their home back to life. Wildflowers swayed in the gentle breeze and filled the air with a light fragrance. Suzy looked out over the field and felt inspired to head outside for a bit. She picked up her mat and gear, leaned down and kissed Steve on the cheek as he busily worked on his latest book, and headed out the front door.

She found her way to the steppingstones they had laid when the fields were low and walked to a small platform that they built at the high spot in the field. It was a serene location with 360-degree views of their property and their neighbors, along with sight to the mountains. She unrolled her mat and put a small strip of extra padding down for her knees.

She took in a deep breath and relaxed her shoulders as she exhaled. She looked at the house and saw Steve’s head bowed down working steadily. She refocused on her stance and started to move through her sequence.

She first moved into her Cat-Cow combination. Her knees revealed it had been a bit since she had practiced. The extra padding helped at least. She moved into down dog and stretched back, feeling the tightness in her legs begin to loosen.

She continued moving through to a standing position and came into Warrior II. Her balance swayed as she struggled to keep her footing. Finally, she was able to stabilize and move into triangle, but she remained unsteady. She started to move into side angle, then her being out of practice became apparent. She lost her ability to stand and landed on her butt.

Instinctively, she quickly sat up and looked around hoping no one saw. Well, making sure Steve didn’t see. She looked back at the window where he had been sitting, but he wasn’t there. She sighed in relief and stood back up, backing up to Warrior II to start the sequence again.

She struggled to get through, but finally moved on to chair, then folded over and moved into the floor positions. By now, she was sweating. It was something that amazed her; nothing in the sequence was too difficult, but she always found putting it together would cause her to get warm.

Finally, she approached the end of the sequence and Savasana, her favorite part in the practice. She stretched out and relaxed her body. As she came back to paying attention, she looked at the sky and decided to keep laying there a few more minutes watching the puffy clouds and enjoying being in the field.

The sound of steps came from behind her. A shadow cast across her as Steve kneeled down at her head and gently kissed her. Then she felt a chill on her shoulder. Steve had slipped a cold water against her skin and she jumped, then laughed. “Why, I oughtta!” she exclaimed as she sat up and turned towards him.

“Oughtta what?” he retorted with an impish smile as he set down a small basket on the platform. “I thought you could use a bite to eat. Can I join you?”

Her shock at the cold water faded and her face changed into a smile. She slid back on her mat to give him room to join her. “What did you bring us?”

He pulled out a few items from the basket – cheese, grapes, crackers, some dried meat. He hesitated a moment, then he pulled out two small bowls, one full of sweet gherkins and for dessert, some strawberries.

Suzy’s eyes lit up. “My favorites!”

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Resolutions

Poor lighting and a bad camera angle

Revealed her significant slide.

Puffy cheeks, rounded shoulders,

Why does she look so wide?

Dark circles added in, tousled hair too;

What is going on to make her look so rough?

She battles with this from time to time,

Even when life isn’t all that tough.

Pouring herself out of the bed,

Feeling like a humongous blob,

She beats herself up when she gets this way,

Thinking everyone else sees a slob.

So, out come the workout clothes,

At least this year they aren’t tight yet,

And her kicks wait by the door,

Ready for a stroll at sunrise or sunset.

Motivation may be hard to find,

But it’s time to nourish the body and mind.

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Smile

She walked in and saw his face. It was sullen. “Hey, you okay?”

He shrugged and looked at his toes. It wasn’t like him. But, he had these moments from time to time.

She set down the phone in her hand and scrunched up her face. “Tell me, what’s up?”

He was leaning against the counter, and his slouch set his face just a few inches above hers.

He muttered something under his voice, but she couldn’t hear. She stepped closer and closer in small steps. When her toes touched his, he finally looked up.

“What are you doing?” He snipped.

She looked at him, tilted her head, and stuck out her tongue.

He scoffed and started to push her back. “Are you trying to make me…”

She giggled a moment and stepped back. Then she made another silly face.

His scoff finally broke into a small smile.

She cheered and took a victory pose. “Yes! I knew it was still there.”

He splayed a hand across his face and rolled his eyes. Then he stood up and pulled her into a full on body hug. “Thank you!”

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Pep Talk

I know you want to give up,

Give up on yourself.

Retreat back into your mind and

Busy yourself with work.

Your mind is strong, but it isn’t all.

Your heart is fragile, but feels so much.

Your body is weak, but capable of more.

Your soul is tortured, but can be calmed.

So don’t you dare give up on yourself.

Do you hear me? This is your mind speaking.

Don’t retreat back to using only me,

Ignoring the rest because it’s easier.

Please, don’t give up on us.

Don’t let life just happen to you.

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Stand Back Up

Stand back up child. Nothing like this is worth this sadness. Nothing has changed; what is meant to be, will be.

Fill each day with the happiness of the present. Make your joy if you can’t find it, the purr of kitties; a well-meaning hug from someone who cares; getting lost in art, doodling; maybe read or write a good book!

Get out and enjoy the crisp breeze. Work out until your sweat replaces your tears. Clean and organize, get out of your slump. Water your garden and watch it grow.

There is more to life, and goddamnit, you know it. Take a moment if you must, but feel it, then let it go. Life is better than you admit…get out of your head and live it.

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Farewell Holidays

Wistful melancholy fills the room,

The excitement of the season wanes.

Each ornament, one by one, goes to the box,

Waiting for the new year to pass,

To a time when they may shine again.

The house will feel uncluttered and clean,

But the festive mood follows the decor,

Out to the garage where it will be stored.

Focus returns to the tasks at hand,

Work, and work, groceries, laundry, more.

Hope the joy sticks around a little though.

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Impact

As I wipe the sleep from my eyes, they open up wide when they see

the face of our ancestors in the snow which lays upon the mountainside.

A reminder to me, to us, that our lives, ever fleeting, ever moving,

are far from never impacting for we leave our mark wherever we go.

Walk gently dear souls across our land, knowing all we do cannot be undone.

Be kind, be true, be ever faithful to your heart, and quiet those running thoughts.

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New Year

A new day awakes, a new year dawns,

Open your eyes sleepyhead and have a yawn.

Find a way to be outdoors once the fog lifts,

Get lost on the trail letting your mind drift.

Empty yourself of last year’s pains,

Dry up any tear soaked stains,

After 2021, everyone deserves a fresh start,

A smile, happiness, and a renewed heart.

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Patience

Her eyes cleared. She realized the enormity resting on his shoulders, the great responsibility he had undertaken. Journeying into parenthood was something so many around her had done; but she was at a loss. It was a skill, and a joy, that she never experienced.

Suddenly, she stopped, unable to help. Painfully aware at just how undeveloped she was in this very area of life. Willing to listen, to be patient, to be a sounding board would be the best that she could do. However, she didn’t have answers.

How do parents battle the force of peer pressure? Help to mold their children into the best version of themselves? It definitely wasn’t easy; she had seen that with nieces and nephews and friends kids. How do they do it?

She hoped he would confide and find her a kind and willing ear as he worked through the growing pains. She hoped she could help give him patience in the chaos.

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Fly Me to the Moon – Part Four

The lab was abuzz with activity when Jon and Mikaela arrived. Sam was setting up the machines, no larger than a couple cubes while Gene set up the robotic arms. Several more cubes were set up to the side, in line for the configuration.

Sam’s tone had lightened from the earlier interchange. “Hey, Boss, did you give Jon the two-dollar tour?” followed by a chuckle. “You know, there’s always magic behind the curtain!”

Gene just shook his head and tended to connecting the robotic arm to its base. “You’re a nut, Sam.”

Mikaela just shook her head as she pulled out three chips required for the setup. She checked their integrity and slipped each one into the cubes. Slowly they pulsed. She looked at Jon. “The installs are automated with these chips. We’ll have to train the basic movements here, then make final adjustments on the floor.”

She handed Jon another set of chips similar to the three she had so he could start on the next set, then looked at her watch. She sharply exhaled and uttered, “Where is Scott?” She looked at the door and tapped her hand against the table. He’s always late. Why would tonight be different?

She turned back to the machines she was installing and saw they were finished. She popped out the chips and moved them a table by the robot, then came back. “Let’s build them all this evening, then train them tomorrow. We have 14 sets to get through. I hoped it would just be an hour, but looks like it might be a little longer if Scott’s a no-show.”

Jon looked over at Mikaela. He knew the look on her face, a mix of disappointment and displeasure. He’d seen it long ago. He knew this is why she was always so hands on with the work; she had a hard time trusting others to just show up.

15 minutes later, the door flew open and Scott, breathless, came in. “Sorry I’m late…”

Mikaela held up her hand, holding up three chips. “No excuses. Here are the chips, get to work.”

Scott stammered and his face turned a little red. “Sure thing, Boss.” A smell of tobacco followed behind him. He snatched the chips and took three more machines to start the install.

Gene piped up. “Well, Mikaela, I have the test robot set up. Want to come check it out?”

Mikaela walked over and Gene showed her all the connection points. “I also bolted it down temporarily, you know… should anything happen.”

Mikaela smiled with pleasure. Gene always delivers and thinks ahead. “Thanks Gene, great work. Why don’t you get out of here for the night?”

It was only the second genuine smile Jon had seen from her since they arrived at the lab. Jon wrapped up the next machine and looked up. “Looks like we have about three to go — one for each of us.”

Mikaela looked over. “No way, that’s great!” She looked at her watch and realized it had just reached 18:00. Her smile grew. “We’re basically on track.”

Sam pulled on Mikaela’s arm. “The machines are all here. Do you still need me?” He was almost timid suddenly talking to Mikaela. Jon couldn’t make heads or tails out of the interchange. Mikaela however didn’t seem surprised.

She knowingly blinked her eyes and looked at the door. “Get out of here. See you in the morning.”

Sam thanked her and quietly slipped out.

Scott and Jon finished up their final machines and Mikaela wrapped up hers shortly afterward. Jon could see exhaustion in Mikaela’s face and spoke up. “Ready to shut it down for the night, Mike?”

Mikaela looked up for a moment. “I’ll just be a few more minutes. I have some final things to wrap up. You two go ahead and head out.”

Scott bolted to the door, ready to leave. “Bye!” he shouted as the lab door shut behind him.

Jon pulled up a chair and took a seat next to Mikaela. “Mike, you haven’t changed.” He placed his hand on her device, and she looked up. “You need to stop. Dinner – let’s grab a bite and catch up.”

Mikaela forced a grin and pocketed her device. She shrugged, took a deep breath, then responded with hesitation, “Okay.”