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Tennessee Mountain Home

A little retreat I’ve built in my head. Isn’t it nice to dream? Enjoy!


The paved road is pot-holed and broken. There was a time it was gravel and dust. It splits off the main road and takes us off to Grandma and Grandpa’s old home. Poplar, oak and maple trees shade the road as we wind our way, up and down the hills, past my own father’s house, and around a few other relatives homes before we see the weeping willow and the old home’s drive.

Another family lives in Grandma and Grandpa’s old place now; still a part of the family, but it’s not the same. Grandma and Grandpa have long passed away, and so we continue on. Up one more hill, then down, where our drive should be. Uncle blocked it off with a pile of gravel so teenagers wouldn’t turn it into a hangout spot. We’ll have to continue around. Some orange daylilies and purple passionflowers grow alongside the road as we drive on.

So on we go, around the bend, past another Uncle’s, and his field of corn, then back to a freshly blacktopped road. Turn left and just up the road, a gravel drive leads up a hill. There is our destination, the other side of the drive to our land, leading up to my uncle and cousin’s houses, which both back up to our property.

Our property is a future site for a future home. However, I doubt I’ll live here one day. I’ve thought of plans, how to make it welcoming, to bring my mother and her family together, but the timing isn’t right. Mother doesn’t want to be here at this point and we no longer fit, not that I ever did…

We settle in and say our hellos to my aunt and uncle. Sitting on the back porch, our land lies ahead. Two acres for mom, one for me, up on a small brush covered nob. My cousins keep mom’s side mowed; they have turned it into a glorious lawn between their homes. It is the perfect place for their kids and dogs to play and the fireflies to light up the evening as the sun sets.

Still I can see the place I’d like to build. Maybe a little vacation home might be nice. Maybe plant a couple pear trees along the drive; the driveway would follow the valley between our lots. The drive would lead up to the house with an open porch, rockers and chairs about, and an outdoor kitchen and setup for a firepit with chairs all around. As you walk in, a long dining table, with a bench seat running down one side, so there is always room to squeeze in one more. Wood floors throughout along with throw rugs here and there to keep our feet warm. Tile in the wet areas and kitchen to ease cleanup.

A gas fireplace in the center of the home to warm it up on cold winter days and welcome everyone with a little heat. Maybe two-sided, one side toward the eating area, the other to the living room. The living room would be inviting and comfortable, a sofa and some chairs, and room for a Christmas tree in front of the window.

A roomy kitchen would border the dining room. It would be reminiscent of Grandma’s, with countertops large enough to make biscuits, bread, and cakes as well to set out a family dinner. A gas stove would be a must. A side door would lead to an outdoor gathering spot for all the family to share.

A bedroom or two with bathrooms to boot would round out the house, whether they be upstairs or down. I might want a little summer porch in the back, much like Grandma’s, where the washer and dryer would sit along with any extra pantry items needing to be stored. The house would be quiet, and cozy, and hopefully filled with love.

It could be a nice little place one day, but for now, it will stay a dream. A different life requires my attention.

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Free


Her brown eyes looked at his, filled with tears.

His brown eyes were black as coal and cold.

Once where love glistened and glowed, there was no more.

Her voice quivered, she knew it was over, but she wondered,

What did I do wrong? Wasn’t I patient and kind?

Didn’t I show him how much I loved him?

How I’d stand by him through anything?

His voice was icy and distant. It’s me, not you.

She knew things weren’t right for a while.

She thought it was wedding jitters; she’d had her own.

The first cracks appeared months earlier.

She came back in his life, a sweetheart from childhood,

add on top of that, their families were friends.

It burst wide open a week after her 30th.

She sat there in her nightshirt, broken.

Her life shattered, her future plans destroyed.

Her life reset to those days she had in college,

when serious heartbreak was fresh and new.

This one was harder, as there was more,

a home and finances to work through.

It wouldn’t be ripping off a bandaid,

but rather a slow, painful torture taking months.

But, she not only survived, she eventually thrived.

It wasn’t until years later she would realize,

he had set her free.

~DRM~


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Thank You!

As National Poetry Month comes to a close, I would like to thank everyone who has read and liked my poetry and various posts this April. I also appreciate the kind comments made.

There have been days I searched for inspiration, and others where it came easily. I enjoyed every moment through this journey and appreciate having this platform to share. If you participated as well, I hope you unleashed unfathomable amounts of creativity on your side.

The frequency of my posts will likely slow down in the coming weeks — work demands, which pays the bills, and other obligations are expected to take more of my time. Why is it we sacrifice our creative outlets when other demands increase? However, I hope you’ll continue to check in and enjoy what comes out of this brain in the future. Who knows what I will come up with!

For those creators out there, keep writing, keep creating, keep dreaming…the possibilities are endless.

Gratefully,

~DRM~

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The Final Bow

My heart weighed heavy at the start of this poetry month, having been unsure of my own mind, my present, my future, and a historic-sized wave of regret and nostalgia over the preceding few months. Mistakes were made and time was needed to work through my own unsurety.

Writing has been cathartic to help me refocus and move through it. I am more in the present and able to work through the challenges that lie ahead now. To close out my month of poetry, I hope you enjoy The Final Bow.


Everyone has darkness that they must overcome.

Depression, anxiety, sadness, loneliness, or anger.

Seek inside yourself the goodness you have

and find ways to move through darkness.

No one else can do it for you.

When dealing with others faced with darkness,

quiet the accusations, open your ears and heart.

Be honest, but be their light, so that they may see.

Darkness cannot drown out darkness.

Hope for them they can find their way.

Darkness cannot defeat the light, no matter how hard it may try,

but light can be seen through the dark, and help us find our way.

April 30, 2021~DRM~


Please visit my poetry page throughout the month for all of my poems for April: https://dawnreneewrites.com/?page_id=1378

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Grateful

Trying my hand at an acrostic poem for today. My hope is everyone finds at least one thing to be grateful for each and every day.


Grins help me find some happiness.

Reality, I am where I need to be.

Adventure awaits to refill my soul.

Tribbles and purrs come from my fur-babies.

Exciting challenges lay ahead at work.

Friendships remain dear.

Upbeat music plays all around.

Love fills my heart.

April 28, 2021~DRM~


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Why I Waited…

This one is for all the girls out there who stand in front of the mirror wondering if anyone will love them. The ones who think they have to give their bodies away just to be loved. The ones who treasure themselves, but also long to have someone by their side.


I was a nerdy, dorky, glass-wearing, chubby girl…not much has changed! Boys in high school didn’t ask me out often. I didn’t have a rocking figure, a beautiful head of hair, bubbly personality, or any of the things boys seemed to find attractive during my teenage years. That didn’t mean I didn’t have an opportunity to give it away, or to have sex, though.

There were always those boys who would take you out once and expect something in return, the ones who looked at you as if they did you a favor asking you out and now it was your turn. Not all boys, but those guys are out there. Ladies, don’t fall for it! You owe them nothing!

However, I did date a little, and I chose to wait for sex until I was an adult. Maybe it was an easier decision because I wasn’t popular. My first boyfriend didn’t understand, and after a few months, he decided to take a “sure bet” to prom…one of his friend’s words to me, not my own. It made me mad as well as sad; I really liked him and wanted to go to prom together.

So, why did I wait? It wasn’t something like my parents expected it or for religious reasons. It was a lot more practical.

I worked at a store when one of my close friends from middle school came in with her mom and a baby in tow. I thought it was her baby brother. He was about 18 months at the time. I was surprised when she looked me straight in the eye and said he was hers. No judgement from me, but I could tell she was tired and struggling with the whole Mom role at 16. My heart broke for her; her teenage years of discovery and freedom cut short to become a parent at only the age of 14.

That was the day I decided to wait…to wait for the person I could see having a future with. I only ever wanted one love…maybe that was a little naïve to think, even then. However, in the end that wasn’t to be the case …so often it isn’t these days. But, waiting was one of the few things I believe I did right during my tender young age.

By the time I graduated high school, two more of my friends would face the same fate of being teenage moms, going to either an alternative school or dropping out and getting their GEDs. Bright, smart, intelligent girls, trapped into parenthood before they were 18. Both of them are doing great with children fully grown now, but they lived a difficult road starting their families so soon. I lost contact with my friend from middle school, so I don’t know how things turned out for her.

The question I asked myself when I was tempted back then was, “Could I handle being a parent?” and “Do I want this person in my life for 18+ years, should that happen?”

This is only a reflection on my experience to pass on to any girl, or guy, who is wavering on that fence. This is in no way condemnation of anyone who decides to embark on sexual relationships in their teens. I see my friends kids navigating through this territory now. My friends have prepared them as well as possible. This is advice I’d give any of my nieces and nephews kids when they get older: Be smart, use protection, and protect your heart. If you aren’t sure, step back and wait.

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Alexandria – Part Three

“It is done.” King Zachary’s voice was resigned. He hated sending his daughter away, but was thankful they had time to get her to a safe location.

“Zack,” Queen Elena gently spoke, placing her hand on his heart, “It’s what we must do. My only hope is she arrives safe and news does not reach there until everything is over.” Queen Elena turned around and faced the fireplace in their bed chamber. Her frail fingers rubbed the satin sleeves of her navy gown. “My hope is that this will be done quick so when Alexandria returns, she has minimal disruption during the transition.” Her eyes turned red. “You promise to take care of her, my dear?” Her tears began to flow, falling to the stone floor below as her hands moved to cradle her own head.

King Zachary walked up behind his beloved, embracing her from behind and holding her tightly to him. His burden was great. His love would soon be gone from the kingdom, gone from his life. She willingly was leaving, to save the kingdom and her family. Softly, he kissed her upswept brown hair. It smelled of lavender and vanilla, just like the tea she loved so much.

“Do you think I should tell her?” Elena turned to face him, still wrapped in his embrace.

He wiped the tears from her blushed cheeks, and hung his head. “No, I don’t think so. I will explain it to her in time. Let’s enjoy tomorrow with her and let her carry those happy moments forward.” He softly kissed his wife, his queen, on the lips. They embraced a few moments more. “Dinner will be soon. I will need to meet with Thomas and William afterward to ensure they understand the gravity of the situation for this trip.”

Elena stepped back, and wiped her face clear of the tears, sniffling, but regaining her composure. “Yes, my King. I understand.”

From behind them, a knock on the chamber door echoed through the room. “Come!” King Zachary bellowed, stepping in front of Elena as she straightened her hair and dress.

Page James entered the room. “King Zachary, Sir Thomas, Lord William and Lady Victoria have all arrived. They are awaiting in the library.”

King Zachary nodded his head. “Thank you, James. Please let them know we will be down momentarily.”

James nodded his head and snapped into a turn, exiting the room and closing the door behind.

Queen Elena looked over at Zack and forced a smile. “Shall we?”

He offered his hand to her and escorted her to see their guests.

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Sunrise


Gloom hangs in the air this dawn.

Joy and lightness are missing.

The trees are dark, lining the lake,

their reflections in the water even darker.

The sun finally breaks through in the distance behind.

Its rays highlight clouds in a warm coral pink hue.

The birds begin to soar, and

the heaviness starts to lift.

April 27, 2021~DRM~


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Appalachian Breakfast

Grandmother’s breakfasts were always grand.

She rose at 4 AM to make the morning meal. Flour, buttermilk, butter and love, kneaded into soft little pillows of white, ready to bake. Pork chops or chicken, battered and ready to be fried. A little bowl of fresh berries, sliced up and macerating, just for me.

Into the oven goes the biscuits, puffing up and turning golden. The bacon grease pops on the stove, frying up the meat. A little more grease goes in another pan to cook up the eggs, while another scoop into the pot to make up the white pepper gravy. The smell of fresh country cooking fills their little two-bedroom home.

Mom slices up a tomato, picked from grandmother’s garden yesterday. As everything cooks, Mom has me set the table for six. There are only five of us, but you never know when one of my uncles might swing by. Grandmother and Mom plate up all of the food and set it on the table. Mom leaves the kitchen to get Pop and Grandfather.

We all sit down for morning breakfast and enjoy the feast Grandmother made just for us. Such are the memories of childhood visiting the Appalachians.


Thank you to @Lady Jabberwocky for the prompt! https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/101036891/posts/3307270174

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Alexandria – Part Two

Alexandria walked out of the palace and followed the pea graveled path to the rose garden. She loved the beauty of the vibrant Lady in Red climbing roses which graced the archway to the garden. Briefly she paused, bringing her nose close to a bloom to enjoy the delicate fragrance.

In the distance, King Zachary waited by the bench before the General Jacqueminot roses. He loved that is daughter took enjoyment in the simple things, such as the beauty of flowers. He watched her as she enjoyed each blossom as she approached.

“Father,” Alexandria bowed as she greeted him, “You summoned me?” She rose back up and sweetly looked at him.

Zachary waved his hand toward the bench, “Let’s have a seat.”

Once Alexandria sat, her father joined her.

“Zandry,” her father interlaced his hands in the same manner as his daughter does when she is thinking, “I think you need a break from palace life. What would you think about taking a few weeks to travel to the far regions of the kingdom?”

Father rarely called her Zandry these days. It was a childhood nickname and harkened back to a simpler age of ribbons in her hair and no requirements to be so formal. A break from the palace and getting to see areas she hadn’t been to caused her face to light up like any teenager offered to travel the world. “Father, I would love to go on this journey.” Her response came out formal, but the smile on her face revealed her giddiness.

Zachary looked at his daughter. She definitely needed a break, she didn’t know how to drop out of her formal mode any longer. “Zandry, I want you to have fun on this trip,” he picked up his daughter’s hand and cupped it between his. He wondered if they had leveled too much upon her shoulders too quickly. “I’ve arranged for a carriage to first take you out to the mountain house. While you are there, blend in with others and dress as they do. Just be your charming self.”

“Father, am I to go alone? Aren’t you and mother coming?” Alexandria was not sure to be nervous or excited.

“We will not be going. But your cousins Kaitlyn and Victoria along with cousins Thomas and William will accompany you. I can’t have you running around alone! You will also be accompanied by a few of the staff to help with logistics and such.”

Katy and Tori! This was fantastic news to Alexandria’s ears. The three of them were inseparable growing up. Tom and Willie were older, they must be our chaperones Alexandria thought to herself. “When do they arrive, and when do we leave?” Her voice almost came out with a squeal of excitement.

Her father was happy to see she was still there behind all the formality façade she had built recently. “Kaitlyn is expected tomorrow, and Victoria should arrive later today. Thomas and William are already here. You’ll head out the day after tomorrow. The mountain house is already being set up by the staff your mother sent out early.”

Father and daughter stood up by the bench. Alexandria could no longer contain her excitement. She jumped like her dad’s little girl and hugged her father around the neck. “Thank you, Pop! I’m thrilled!”

King Zachary hugged his daughter back, a little tighter and longer than he had in a while. A tear welled up in his eye, which he worked to keep in place.

She let go and spun around, the skirt of her dress flaring out, and ran back towards the house to start packing with her maid. King Zachary’s smile quivered and his tear fell down his cheek after she left. He was thankful she didn’t suspect what was to come in the kingdom. But now he knew she would be safe and out of harm’s way.