Why is there this hollowness from nowhere

A hole where my heart rests

Years have passed, still,

it creeps upon me from time to time

A yearning to connect,

even for just a moment

Triggered by a song, a smell,

Sometimes a random thought

That longing which cannot be fulfilled

It will not dissipate,

no matter the distractions

No matter the resistance…

But carry on I must

As flashes of the past,

And dreams never to be

flicker in my head.

Out of my reach,

beyond my control.

Why?